Friday, December 31, 2010
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Wednesday, December 29, 2010
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Tuesday, December 28, 2010
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Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Posted by chrisandtif at 10:20 PM
It is amazing how different your second pregnancy is...instead of day-dreaming about your upcoming bundle of joy, you are wrestling with your first-born, cooking, cleaning and just living. I can only imagine that it gets worse with the third, fourth, fifth...and so on. I am not going to lie, it is a bit of a downer.
I am sure that once "Sweet P" is here the afore mentioned won't matter.
Mostly, I am ready. Not in the literal sense of the word. I have a small, small, amount of clothing washed and ready to go. We have a few diapers. No meals cooked, but maybe after Christmas we can start planning that. Chris knows where the car seat is in the storage shed and I found the newborn inserts for it a few days ago while cleaning out the second bedroom closet. We are planning to get the co-sleeper out and next to our bed this weekend.
I think I am just ready to be able to focus on our little girl. Is it sad that I am looking forward to the hospital stay a little just so that I won't have to worry about Eli, cooking every night, bills, laundry and making sure the house is picked up? Yes, I think that is a little sad, but I am not going to lie! ;) I am excited about that time alone with our new baby. I am excited about having a girl; about having a boy and a girl. Even if I don't ever get to have another baby, I have both a boy and a girl. How wonderful is that?!?
I have been thrown off a little because everyone that I know around me has already had their baby...even if they were due after me. I am so very grateful that all of their babies are fine now and healthy. It makes me even more thankful to have a wonderful pregnancy this go 'round just like with Eli. I do pray that the delivery goes better with Sweet P though.
Things aren't looking too promising, however. A few weeks ago, we found out that she is breech. Of course I was relieved when the sonogram tech said that she is healthy and perfect...just upside down. She has moved no less than 6-8 times (that I know of) and as I write I can feel hiccups lower, so I think she is facing the right direction at the moment. Don't you love my scientific, fail-proof way of knowing how she is laying? Anyway, I am sure that she will turn back again as I lay down to go to bed. My doctor isn't worried at the moment and will plan to do another sonogram late next week to see where she is. We shall see.
Anyway, just a general update. We are busy here getting ready for Christmas, excited to see family and spend a few days together. Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas- be safe!
Posted by chrisandtif at 3:32 PM
Monday, December 13, 2010
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Friday, November 12, 2010
Posted by chrisandtif at 1:16 PM
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Posted by chrisandtif at 11:20 AM
Thursday, November 04, 2010
Excerpt from http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/ Bring the Rain
"On a related note, I've been struggling with a lot of fear related to Charlotte. I was sharing with my sister in law the other night about how Charlotte has started flipping over to sleep on her stomach and for awhile I would go in every half hour and put her back on her back. Again. And again. And again. I could feel myself starting to panic whenever I walked into the room, my mind telling me that she might not be breathing anymore. Finally, after I had done this more times than I can say, I felt the Lord stop me midway over to her and say gently, "Angie. How long will you do this?"
So instead of turning her over I sat on the floor and prayed. And prayed. And prayed.
And then I closed the door behind me and took Him at His word. I know that God is good, and that He doesn't go off duty and let things just fall apart. He has a plan for Charlotte, and whatever that plan is will not be enhanced by me obsessing over every single thing I think I can do to control her safety. It's appropriate to be cautious and responsible, but I can't let myself believe that it's up to me...but that is so hard."
I was reading one of the blogs that I follow today (above) and this part really spoke to me. I can totally relate because I feel myself starting to panic about our upcoming delivery of "Sweet P". I find myself questioning our decision to attempt a VBAC over and over again. I know that a successful VBAC is less risky than a planned C-section, but on the other hand a C-section resulting from an unsuccessful VBAC is more risky than a planned C-section, not to mention a few more side effects for the baby that I thank God I didn't know about with Eli. All of that on top of the fact that a C-section limits the number of babies you can have safely....but I digress.
Honestly, I don't think I can do it. There, I said it out loud. It is hard to think that it is possible for me to have a natural birth when no other women on my mother's side of my family could. I have prayed for God to take away my desire to have a natural birth and my desire to have a big family, but the more I think about not being able to have another baby after this one, the more upset I get. Honestly, if we end up with a C-section I might be asking about adoption information while recovering in the hospital.
Anyway, I just wanted to share because I know that we are all going through things in our life that we have a hard time letting go of. Hope this helps.
Posted by chrisandtif at 3:09 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
Posted by chrisandtif at 2:02 PM